I love everything low-key. Not dressing up for things, relaxing, sleeping. So New Year's has been this for me for a very long time. In the past I've gone to an early dinner and movie, home and asleep before 10 am. I actually prefer this over the crazy, chaotic, every body's drunk and I lost who I was riding with major party. :) Go figure, right?
This year we were invited over to Joe's house, for a low key night. I loved it....around 10pm everyone was ready to go. We did stay til midnight so we could sip the champagne and hug each other, but soon after we were all on our way home!
Looking back at this past year, I am so happy. Major things happened, but nothing too terrible we couldn't handle. I am excited for what the new year will bring. I like the promise of good things to come, the optimism of life ahead. As I do this, I am reminded of what tomorrow will bring. Be prepared, the following is for me to express and get the sadness out.
I will never forget the day I found my grandpa, lifeless, sitting in his chair. It haunts me sometimes, and I have dreams of him coming back to life and living with me. Maybe this is a hope that he is doing well in his after-life, maybe it's a fear that I am not living up to his expectations. Either way, it's a recurring dream. And I hope it ends soon!
I prefer to remember the happy times; Papa teasing me about the dumb thing I said, Mama giving me a big hug and kiss and always being so loving. I guess it's holidays that do this to people, but tomorrow being a bad day for our family, it just brings it to the surface. I am so lucky to have had the memories and wonderful experiences with my family. I know there are many people out there that aren't as lucky.
To you and your family: enjoy the moments. The little ones. The ones that make you laugh, smile, melt your heart. Take time to be with family. Enjoy it!