Tuesday, October 23, 2012

I just can't help....

It's just after 6am, and I REALLY need to be getting ready for work.....but I had to take the time to write this while I am still feeling it.  It was a dream, but it was the most beautiful dream I have ever had.  So beyond realistic--I feel like the word realistic is completely lame wording but I can't even think of what to call it.  Magical or heavenly?

Last night my grandparents came to me in a dream.  Both of them.  It started out as a bad dream, but I received a note from Papa saying to remember it's a dream.  It gets a little blurry, but the next thing I know they are both sitting at a table talking to all of us.  We are gathered around the table and they are talking about little things from their lives.  Sharing small stories, talking with everyone.  Then it becomes a more intimate setting, where they talked about their life together, and they are so happy.  They held hands, and I sobbed.  Papa actually told me to stop blubbering.  Mama was so healthy and happy...I actually heard her laugh.  She made some jokes about the toilet being too high here, not like what she was used to....and she looked me right in the eyes and said she loved me.  They both also talked about their favorite thing to do, which was dancing (??? not sure how this fits in.  Maybe they liked to dance when they were younger?  Or it's something they can do now?).

Papa had a hurt foot, so he wore a slipper on one foot and one of his old tennis shoes on the other.  I joked about getting him a new pair, but he commented--why, there's nothing wrong with this old pair!  We talked a little bit, he told me he got a dog.  And she let him poke at her with his cane.  Dog just showed up one day on his patio so he knew it was his.

The weirdest part was that there were these images that were put in my head, like they were sending me messages through pictures.  One was of Papa's puppy-it was Lambeau.  Another was of the family all together.  Like as if they were saying "don't forget this".  He also gave me some images of the Packers.  Seems lame, but it was one thing he ALWAYS teased me about.

While talking to my mom this morning, I completely broke down and started sobbing.  The last image I have is of them holding each other's hands on the table, looking at their wedding rings.  You couldn't mistake the love they have for each other, even today.  I am so sad, heartbroken, joyous, released that I had this dream. It was a sign, I am sure.  One I am lucky to have gotten--and I am sure they saw I was in need.  I think of them daily--any time I find a penny on the ground I thank them for the blessing.  I cannot believe that this isn't real.  I don't ever want to forget it.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Reason, season, or lifetime?

A friend told me about this poem today, and after the events of my day I can only find it truly fitting.  Makes me think of many of my dear friends (those I see often, and those I know that are always there for me). Thank you to each and every one of you!

People always come into your life for a reason, a season and a lifetime.
When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a godsend too you, and they are. They are there for a reason, you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die, Sometimes they just walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends.

LIFETIME, relationships teach you a lifetime of lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway);, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Day trip!

 Our attempt to go camping did not go as we had planned...we borrowed my brother's truck, and it broke down in Prescott...

I checked the oil...if you look you can see me hiding from the picture (but my reflection is in the window)!
Meg decided to pour us some drinks...in the back of Jared's truck...
Me, happy...
Remember when I said I wanted to relax?  Well, I got to!  We sat in the park and read our books while we waited.
Meg took turns reading and people watching...
Ellios (Aimee's dog) waited patiently while we ate. This restaurant was "dog friendly" so Elliot got to join us!
This is once we got back to the truck and waited for Jared.  Yep,  the truck died right in front of an elementary school...

 We had a good time on our day trip!

Sunday, October 14, 2012

October Break time!!!

My goals for the next week off:
~Lots of naps

~Camping with Meg and Aimee (we leave tomorrow!  I am looking forward to the fresh air)
~Finishing the curtains in the den (woo hoo!!)
~NOT thinking about work (I attempted to do all of my classroom things today so I won't try to do anything else)

~Spending time with Abby and Kayla (jammer party Thursday night!!)
~Quality time with Raji

~Getting back on the healthy diet

~A Packers win vs the undefeated Texans

Just when you think you've seen it all...

Just when I think I have everything Packer related, I find these....
Everyone needs football boots...

Wow....I would wear these if it weren't for the HIGH heel!  I'd totally die in them.

Why can't they make these in flats???

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Better times :)

Tonight was our school carnival, and I happily signed up for 30 minutes of pie in the face.  It was a slow start....Erin Roberts gave me the first pie smoosh in the face.  After a bit, and lots of taunting by me, it picked up.  I even "had" to return for a few encore pie throws for a few of my students (who came a little late).  All in all, it was fun.  I was super excited to get home and wash the whipped cream out of my hair and behind my ears :)

Things are looking up. I'm feeling better, and find myself enjoying life more.  I stayed at the carnival until it ended, caught up with a few former students afterwards, then stopped for a nice chat after that.  I am glad that I am feeling more positive lately :)